Ever feel like you're the smallest "thing" in the world, have no ability, feeling superior/important when actually you're not, always bragging about yourself but ending as a loser?
Well I feel like one now. Just finishing with some lectures to my friends and they said I have my wisdom, but my, oh my, I'm just a small-spirited spirit living in a form of a 19-years-old girl who still couldn't do anything without help (primarily from her mom).
Really, I want to say that my depression is a bastard that can swim. I try to drown it but never success
I'm the 'more popular' and 'look more logical' or even 'cooler' people in a forum of manga, and just 'won' hearts from an argument versus ...newbie.
You know what, I feel like I'm the worst person in the world right now, because the newbie is actually have ever receive an award in manga world and I ...have just losing in my second attempt on sending my comic to a manga competition. Just how the hell I'm brave enough to teach the people who won an award?!
Hhh...
and I think I feel my life is perfect enough that I try to change other people life. SO sorry, my cousin. I'm the one failed.
And this happened just after I feel superior because I'm better at time management compared to some of my friend. Ugh
Now I have to eat all the shit I have been saying. What to do now?
Well maybe I'm not as bad as I'm potraying right now, but I'm frustated, sleepy, very disappointed and need rest
Thank you, I'll try to sleep to see the effect, thank you
